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Tell me that you love me more.

I'm leading a philosphy discussion today on John Foer's Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close. It reminds me too much of Catcher in the Rye, in a good way though.
Then I have another class and then English. After English I'm treating Jon to lunch/dinner [lunner?] at Dante's Diner.

It's cloudy outside, was pouring earlier with some thunder.
This type of weather makes me want to listen to slow Morcheeba songs over and over and over again.

I really hope Stef and Paige can up tomorrow because it's Penn State's Saint Patty's weekend which means excess amounts of booze, liquor and little amounts of clothing. Actually, I just really want to see them.

School ends in 2 months-ish. =(

Fuck my life.

Reasons to Fuck my life:
+ Sick. No voice. Actually, voice of prepubescent boy. Scratchy, croacky, not in that sexy stuffy nose way.
+ So much work. So little time-management skills.
+ Asexual?
+ Collegian not what was expected.
+ Journalists are beginning to look more and more like tools. Major bust to future plans.
+ Bottom bunk buddy sleeps with window open and fan on. WTF. Don't want to mess with her. She's from Philly.
+ Special female visitor comes this week. Note to self: try to avoid all human contact next few days. You will probably be a bitch.
+ Guys in general. All the hot ones are illiterate, the cute ones are frat boys and the intellectual ones have anatomical problems. But I'd probably take anatomical problem victims over illiterates and tools. question mark.
+ 5 hours of sleep average. Blaring lights make sleep impossible. Roomies need to invest in desk lamps.
+ Lack of hair care makes self look like jungle woman...just add a few twigs...leaves....beatles...
+ Am becoming excessively sarcastic. Due to lack of sleep. Due to roomies not investing in desk lamps.
+ Running out of Germ-X.    Oh boo.
+ Picture of mom and dad and me at New York weekend before leaving for college makes self feel uplifted yet crazy sad.

Now don't get me wrong, I love Penn State. My roomies and I get along really well. The food is SO GOOD. I've been doing really well in my classes. But sometimes I just miss home. Not even home, just the fact that at home everything is already settled and there. Here everything is up in the air: futures, friendships, grades, lives. It's make or break & it's a little bit overwhelming at times. but do-able. Definitely do-able. Will do.

Must:
-Manage time better. ie: not stay up until 1am doing math.
-Go to the Grasshopper tomorrow and get a passport sized picture of self.
-Study study study for Math and Econ exam.*** No parties this weekend.
-Appreciate life more.
-Eat healthier. Though you've been amazing with the vegetarian diet. Kudos.
-Come up with propositions for tomorrow's orientation. *read State News*
-Track down bear.

I made the Collegian.

Prestige.

Another apartment party, another frat party...thank goodness it's the week and we can start studying again.
I am legitamately excited for classes.

It's time to  take out our winter coats, and our winter smiles. 

I. Am. Literallllly. Jumping. In. My. Seat. 
Everything has been boughted and is pack. ed. 
El Ipod-o has been updated. 
& I'm ready to go. 
right now...
........
...but i have to wait another 3 days. 
=( 

My parents keep saying how i should have gone to tcnj instead of pennystaters, mostly because of the money, & while 10k is much cheaper, idk, i feel no deep love for tcnj, no connection, no chemistry. It isn't the school, it's me...
But penn state's different, everytime i think about going i wet myself. Figuratively mostly.

 Yesterday I made friendly with the Bed Bath & Beyond employees as I tried to figure out what I absolutely needed for college. Thanks to communal bathrooms, eh, I won my mom over for the very plush very white very warm bath robe. 
& now I feel like I've been on the phone for houuuuurs with the Hesaa people speaking the very irritating language of loans. When I first called, several weeks ago, I had no idea what I was talking about but thanks to Mark, the guy who conveniently always answers the phone when I call, I got this stuff down pat. I'm glad he always answers, I don't think anyone else could put up with my constant questions. 
....
& I decided, like Stefanie, that while in college I'll keep LJ but keep all my entried private. A digital diary of my college life.
....
Speaking of the Mauro, I am home, all alone for the next 2-3 weeks. Stef's in Italy kissing boys and Carm is in DC doing I dont know what with hobos. Working everyday keeps my mind busy but when I get home I'm too tired to do anything but read, which explain how I managed to finish New Moon in a day. It's weird, when I'm reading the book I feel good because Edward is such a gentleman and because he's so perfect for Bella, but when I take a break from reading I feel miserable when I think too much about what I read because my life is so not like that. Pathetic. 
.....
I'm somewhat excited for Cape Cod this year. We're staying at Martha's Vineyard for most of the time but I found out that Justin, a guy I work with at a&f, is visiting Cape Cod practically the same week I'm going so we're gonna meet up. He's a cutie, but definitely more into men than most straight guys should be. That's ok, he's the only person I've managed to have an intelligent conversation at work with. That might be my fault though, I don't really try to talk to the girls I work with, or even some of the guys. There's really only so many times you could bare to hear about going to the gym, drinking protein shakes, bench lifting and gossip about people I have never met before. I don't have any problems with them; we just don't have much in common. 
......
Maybe it's the weather but I've been feeling so ....mild..lately. Never too excited, too angry, too bored, too happy. Just mild. I need something to happen, something to wake me up.

Listening for voices, but it's the choices that make us who we are
Go your own way, even seasons have changed just burn those new leaves over

This is the correlation of salvation and love
          (Don't drop your arms)

I think of happy when I think of you
so wherever you are I hope you're happy
I really do
I hope the stars are kissing your cheeks tonight
I hope there's a kite in your hand
that's flying all the way up to orion
and you still got a thousand yards of string to let out
I hope you're smiling
like god is pulling at the corners of your mouth
I wish you'd never left
but mostly I wish you well
I wish you my very very best.
-a.gibson

"Too bad that all the people who really know how to run the country are busy driving taxi cabs and cutting hair."
-George Burns.

"our bodies get bigger but our hearts get smaller"
Blissful Arcade Fire. 
It cheers me that Anderson Cooper and I share a love for similar music. It will make our marriage all the more stronger. 
>>>>>>>>>>>
So today at work Keith the manager asked me to go "mall recuiting", which basically means that he and I walked around the mall finding people to work for A&F. Sadly this is the Willowbrook Mall we're talking about & everyone is either ghe-to or thirteen. Or thirteen & ghet-to. 
So no luck. 

Anywaysers, after work I went on a date to Red Lobster......With my parents. My brother ditched us for a real date.  
Jerk. 

I debated politics with my dad over bread and shrimp scampi. 
He's still a Ron Paul fan but I got him to reconsider Hill. =) 
>>>>>>>
OH AND INTENSE SHOPPING THIS SATURDAY. 
I'M PSYCHED. 
>>>>>>>>>>>
& kudos to Olivia who helped a customer today. 
In Spanish. 
Totally and completely en espanol. 
& I used big words too, like liquidacion and impermeable (which we don't sell of course). 


All in a day's work.

Problem with Obama is that everytime I watch his speeches I get the feeling that he's running for president of the frat house. 
Sure he delievers inspirational speeches but so would you if your speech writer was one of the greatest in history. All of his ideas are intechangable with Hill's, the major difference is that she HAS experience. Yet, he's the master at meaningless platitudes and the words "hope" and "belief" and "we" somehow manage to arouse millions of fans. Big hoohaa.
I also hate how the media is endorsing Obama because his charisma is "SOOO easy to endorse". 
& fuck you CNN, you're supposed to be the "unbiased news".

&I've decided that I simply cannot stand politics anymore because no matter how many hours of reading I do on a topic I never know where the truth actually is. It drives me insane. All I know is that I have this gut feeling telling me that if Obama was to take President he will be another great disappointment, and I don't think this country can stand anymore great disappointments, or another republican leader to boot. 

But seriously speaking, take Obama on the war issue. He's not just an idiot, he's a damn idiot. Seemingly he gives the attitude that he completely understands the complex situation in Iraq not because he studied military strategy or Islamic findementalism but simply because he was and is against the war. Uhhh.....problem with that is that even a stopped clock is right two times a day. Sorry Obama, you're still an amatuer. Give it another couple of years and maybe in 2 decades you'll have a semi descent fighting chance at being on Hill's knowledge level. 


but I mean, give him a break, he gives good speech. 
& apparently we have no problem settling for words.



"Obama '08; because "hope" and "faith" are cheaper (and easier to endorse!) than action."

 

bahh .

Note To Self: 
No more dating managers until AFTER highschool.

Maybe it's moronic that I'm only applying to one college.  
But there is something about it that feels right. 
Like I couldn't possibley fit in anywhere else.
I'm near sure that I'll get in. 
Near sure might not be enough for my parents or for anyone else but 
it's the only place I want to go. 
If I don't get in I'll take a year off, roam the twisted rivers of Africa for a while, rethink my life. 
Then come back and apply again. 
and again. 
and again. 
I'm a determined bastard.

Sooo the Abercrombie & Fitch orientation was today. It was cool & the people are super nice. The dress code is strict though. Flip flops or converse? hahaha whatttever. Very little or no makeup, no piercings, no facial hair for men, no big jewelry, naturally styled hair as in nothing that looks messy or overly gelled, very light tinted nail polish and your clothes have to be from A & F. Oh, and this part still sends shivers down my spine. No Black clothing. Bahh. How can a huge logo name like Abercrombie & Fitch NOT SELL BLACK. WHA DA FUCCCk. Is this God's way of forcing me to wear color? Well bahhhh to him. Bah!
But other than that everything is good, I'm going to stand at the door and greet people for 5 hours every shift. Butttt the discounts are amazing. I bought an $80 shirt for $40.    =) 
& and i start on Black Friday. 
w0000. 

Then right after the orientation i had work at subway for a couple hours. Subway is great, the free food is amazingggg. & the people who come in are hilarious. You either get some sexual harasser or some idiot git who doesn't want to pay for the extra cheese he got. I love people, i really really do. 


"I'm not paying an extra 50 cents for cheese! That's ridiculous!"
"Alrighty. I'll just unwrap the sandwich and take the cheese off.....sir."
"No forget it, this is absurd. Here". 

stupid man, you don't mess with me. I am Subway Worker Supreme. 
lmaooo i hate myself. 

=)

what happens when carmen gets hit on by a 30 year old man:

"where do u live?"
"....oh you know, somewhere in...new ...california..." 

- "HARRY PLOTTER!"
- "please, can we stop? We've been at it for hours"
- "Look at my wand! Love my wand!"
- "SERIOUSLY!"
- "what's he holding?
"it's a Mimbulus Mimbletonia"
"....i can't talk to you anymore."
- "Alphard"
- "He's so empty of emotion..."
"...and yet so full"
- "hochiminh!"
"wtfff...bless you"

GREAT MOVIE.
even better with the commentary of friends.

ok sooo Cho needs to die, as does Ginny and any other girl Harry lusts after in the dark of night.

The only thing better than HarryPlotter #5 is reading sex tips from Cosmo while Stefanie films you.

Both adequately creepy yet charmingly awkward.

I leave manana for Long Island!
Salud to all!

So my dad orders movies from Netflick
and just now he asked if i wanted to watch one with him
and i asked what the name of the movie was
and he said "Bad Men"
and i was like, "wow dad, that sounds very homo erotic"
then my brother said that it was actually "Bad Boys".

I can almost breathe again.
I laughed so hard.

But ok tomorrow is James Griffin Day at Dairy Queen and everyone should gogogo!

I wanna put on my my my my boogie shoes
&
boogie with you.


LOVE that song.
LOVE the summer.
LOVE everything.

Everyone should do the hustle.
It will make even the most depressed sonofagun so happy.